Thursday, February 22, 2007
Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Hope you all had an enjoyable holiday this year. For me, I bascially collected almost all the hong bao on 初 一 ~ $160. $100 from my dad, $50 from my mum, and $10 from my next door neighbour. And 初 二 i'm already back on duty. A bit sad, but I'm sure there's a lot more people out there for the same cause. We're not alone. Nevertheless, I'm glad to say that this will be my last new year served in NS =) While discussing about our hong bao this year, I realized that one of my platoon mate actually gotten an empty hong bao during the holiday. Hai.. Next time at least put in the effort to stuff newspaper inside so that we can feel your xin yi! kidding la.. think is just a case of giving out the wrong hong bao. Anyway, went to 华 老 师 house the following day. Met up with some of my ex classmates. The guys still as much 废 话 as ever, but the girls really blossomed a lot. Yunhui is very slim now and her hair looks good on her, and yan shan looks so much more matured. But throughout the mini gathering, our ex chinese tutor kept correcting our chinese. Even Simple words we used like "吃 先" was wrong in her vocab. She said that was a direct translation from "eat first", and the proper way of saying should be "先 吃".. Well, I'm sure I will Eventually remember what she taught me. But then she kept addressing me as "A", yet she can still talk about the gals who failed to turn up eg milene, wang wang etc.. Think she had forgotten me, so sad! I thought she will at least remember me as the boy who slept in class. Played pool afterwards, and I think my skills had improved by a bit ( think only ). Good start for the year, and was even more happy to see my friend recovered from eczema. Congrats!
*a lot of things I dun want to blog it this way, but some people out there are reading this blog ( and U ). And a lot of thoughts cannot be written here much as I want to. so restricted..
i don't wanna wait no longer;
9:41 PM
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Tried out my new long sleeve shirt yesterday, and I thought I looked quite different and more matured. But who knows Bird and Jeremy said I looked more like playboy. Wth.. Anyway, Jeremy was late as usual and luckily I brought forward the meeting time in anticipation. But Bird was actually EARLY, and even earlier than me. Almost cant believe it. She said it was because of her flat hp battery which caused her to feel insecured and so she dun dared to be late. So I guess she just have to forget to bring her hp everytime and we wun have to wait so long le. But it was a good thing Bird was early. I already felt damn awkward to carry the flowers alone on the mrt, especially when almost everyone took turns to stare at me. Speaking of the flowers, it was another tedious chore. Everyone agreed it was a good idea to give synn tian flowers, in case she was the only one who nv receive flowers then pai seh. End up still me buying, and worse, I never knew what type of flowers she liked. Actually no one knows la. Lilies seem too elegant for her, but roses are like too girly for her. haiyo! I also forgot how I managed to choose the flowers eventually =) Anyway, yesterday outing was full of hip cups which made me realized 3 things. first, I still cant control my emotion, still have to make caustic remarks to release some of my fury when things never go as planned. Second, I'm starting to believe in "Blink", the power of thinking without thinking. The map I saw only showed 1 bus stop in front of UCC when there's actually 2. This lead me to think that UCC should be on my left, so throughout the whole journey, me and lq were keeping a lookout on the left. Then I saw this big grant building on the right which gave me the "concert-hall" look. Told lq, and he reply "thought u said is on the left?" agreed with him, and looked to my left. Saw the basketball court, and suddenly remembered what weiling was telling me. Wanted to alight, but too late! And like what weiling had warned me, the next stop will be freaking far away. Thirdly, through this whole thing, I realized I was the only one who bothered to do some background research first. Wondered what would happen if I suddenly din managed to come. Btw, the dance was awesome! Saw a Jolin-look-alike. She was damn good, and damn hot! although everyone else are doing the dance move, the way she do it and carry herself really make her stand out from the rest. And saw a different side to synn tian, haha din know she can dance. I guess people can actually change, haha.. but I dun like the wayang show, still dun get it even after the whole thing. maybe it's an abstract version of the play, or is just there to add the artistic effect. Anyway, the dance will be quite enjoyable if not for my gastritis recently. It's sporadic, and each attack is getting more frequent and longer, the pain sharper and more intensified. Army has taken its toll on me..
i don't wanna wait no longer;
10:31 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Today is the total defence day. Had a mini NE tour around Singapore with the starting point at City Harvest Church. Mmm.. the church really surprise me. With the scale of community center from the outside, it was fully air-conned and secretly hold an indoor 2 storey auditorium in its basement. Like wat my platoon mate says, the auditorium is big enough to even host Project SuperStar competition ( imagine the size ). As poor as a church mouse.. dun really seem to apply here. Throughout the whole day, heard a lot of discussion about the city harvest church culture. Can't really accept wat the church is practising, but just respect their way la. Anyway, back to the NE tour. Our first stop was URA- Urban Redevelopment Authority. Been here 3 years ago with my JC clique, for the same NE tour. the mini version of Singapore made of small wooden building was still there, walked the landmark of singapore, ate the same 和 记 粥 bird recommended and treated us, images from 3 years kept flashing back. It was almost like deja vu. haha.. still remember how that time we rushed back to tj to watch the temasek idol, and sneaked bird in without tickets. The old days.. foolish us. haha.. The 2nd stop was the Singapore General Hospital museum. I still dun get it, how come we are not allowed to take photos in the museum when the display shown do not have any sensitive material, and seem able enough to take the flash of camera ( even so, we can dun use flash). But the question they asked was a bit too easy/stupid. Qns : " wat is the instrument used to candle an egg ?" Ans : egg candling device. Another one " name 2 pigment of blood". Well.. not very straightforward for the rest, but then they forgot that some people used to take biology in A level. And although I still dunno how I manage to scrap a B for biology, I still know such basic stuff!! All in all, this was quite a pleasent trip. Just board the bus, sleep, have some fun, lunch, sleep on bus, refreshment, then sleep on the bus back followed by book out and day off for tml =)
i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:31 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Happy birthday my friend, and happy valentine day to everyone else! Is such a pity that ur birthday has to fall on valentine day. Such that when everyone was wishing u happy birthday, I think half of our mind was secretly praying that we wun have to celebrate with u next year. Maybe that was in ur mind too =) As the clock struck 12 last night, I had just started my mid-night shift at the gate sentry with my rifle, and my buddy and me. The ambiance was not very encouraging. In the dead of the night, 2 lonely guys doing duty in the cold air under a dark starless night, with only the buzzing sound of the radio breaking the stillness of silence. And to make thing worse, the radio was not very helping. There's this "special" programme being broadcast for valentine day. And somehow, there must be a 20-years-old guy who complained on the air that he spent 20 years of valentine day alone--dun have to keep reminding me right? Anyway, took out my handphone to sms the other loners out there not to be discouraged. But I was quite surprised when somebody replied me. Turned out that I was not the only one who was deprived of sleep in this joyous festival.
On a happier tone, I'm quite pleased with myself that I've finally tried to stop taking the easy way out. Pity I was not so focused 3 years back in J 1 , if not many things would have been so so much different. For example, I began to play pool 3 years back, but started to anyhow play after experiencing the difficulty to control the cue stick, and ended up still a newbie now. But now, I made sure every shot counts even though most of them still keep going of out control. And I promise myself to stop the barley nonsense after cny, something which I should have done cleanly 2 years back. And a lot of other things as well.. Willing myself to move on with each step..changing myself, slowly but certainly. The most basic form of discipline is self discipline. And to another good friend, I know this will be a hectic week for you, and I dun want to bother you with my sms. But all the best to you for the next 2 days, EndurE! and u can rest le, at least for a short while. mmm.. think by the time u are free to read this, it will be over liao. But Just know that we nv forget u and had given u our blessing =)
i don't wanna wait no longer;
7:27 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007
I knew this confinement will be a tough period, but I never expected to feel so much pain. First night of confinement I already saw one of my bunkmate weeping secretly on his bed, while 2 other guys from sea side quarreling uncontrollably. And now they even deprived us of the right to take leave. For me, it could mean missing a last dance, for others it spell the end of a valentine date. A guy told me this morning "this was a god-forsaken place.. and god left us a long time ago". but then, perhaps god wasn't even here in the first place. Right from the start, maybe ours was meant to be a condemned unit..
Fighting hard to think positively, but with every step I take, my faith and morale just keep draining away. We were meant to fight the terrorist, but before we even contacted, we were half killed in the one-sided war waged by the officers, destined to lose from day one..
Beneath the starry night lies the brave souls of the courageous hearts, in grief, helpless and dying..苦 海 无 边
i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:26 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
So much things to say! but dunno where to start from, so pls dun mind me if I'm jumping from point to point. here goes: Just came back from a shopping trip. This must be one of the most tiring shopping ever. Having slept only 3 hours the previous night, I felt like vomitting so much during the shopping. But no choice, cox I know if I dun do my new year shopping today, I probably wun have the chance to do it before chinese new year. All thanks to my confinement ( inside info ) by my commanding officer. And though I still dun think he has any good reason to do it, I wun really condemn him for this. Think I sorted out my thoughts this 2 nights especially after the haircut session conducted by my new csm ( discipline master ), and the enlightening talk by my old csm. And my gut feeling.. No matter how I see, my new commanding officer ( co) dun seem to be that bad a guy. Maybe he just want to show that he is in power and this is His dynasty or watsoever. And my new csm, though the changes he implemented are rather irritating, after following it for one day I think we are not that much affected. Fine-tuning, I would say. It will be the sea side and the other land side platoon, which have been slacking for so long, which will absorb the most effect. Seem to me my new csm just want to set the standard he expected from us, which is something quite logical. And to say the truth la, after reaching his standard which we adapted to within 1 day, we are already so UP there, how can they possible make thing anymore worse! As for the confinement, though is unreasonable, I actually manage to find some comfort in it as I realise this time I wun feel so much pain. cox of the good friends I made in this unit, who will make bad times so much better. To me, this will be a test of our platoon integrity, and a period of helping each other out. Tough time dun last, but tough man do. Dun really want to be so tough a man, but I sure want to clearly remember the tough time and especially the people who went through it with me. Tough time can be good memories, that's depending on how positively we take it =) With that, I rendered my 2 previous entries useless and deleted them as they might land me in a lot trouble next time. To NSmen, think positively la, u are only here for 3 weeks! And lets hope after this 2 weeks of giving the standard they want, they will give us the welfare they promise. Anyway, I'm drifting away from my original topic- the shopping! Bought 3 shirt today, but realise all 3 of them are white colour based. But think my taste of shirt has undergo some changes, which is a good thing. Is time I start to grow up. SO PLS, stop saying I'm CARTOON! U KNOW WHO U ARE! Quite broke now le.. The 3 shirts alone cost me ~$120, then come home and give $200 to my parents. $100 for them to pass to my uncle who shattered his leg bone in an unfortunate motorcycle bike accident ( so many traffic accident recently, luckily I nv pass my btt that time ). I know is a bit little for him who cant be working for quite a while, and I certainly wished I can give more, but also no choice. Hope he can appreciate my xin yi. And for my parents, also a bit of xin yi la. chinese new year coming, hope can do a part for my family also. Afterall, I still can manage to give them hundred bucks when I'm drawing a recruit pay of 350 per month in tekong. Is only after I'm posted out, and my spending power increase so much that I stopped giving them $$. Though just now they say no need la, 100 bucks to them also not much, but deep in my heart I know they pretend pretend only la. I bet they must be damn happy now. Haha.. once in a while, let them know that I still care for them, just that my limited monthly NS allowance really quite restrict me. BUT AGAIN, after this type of spending, when can I possibly save up enough money for my GREAT PLANS AFTER ORD and THE DIVING COURSES!! NOT TO FORGET MY DRIVING COURSE ALSO! ARGHH!!!!
i don't wanna wait no longer;
8:47 PM
